recently i had a very interesting discussion with a friend about what we have observed for the last 3yrs of being part and parcel of this amazing family and i must admit,i have alot more worries than i would be willing to admit to myself but there comes a time when we have to be realistic...am not going to attack anyone nor defend anyone,just make a note that i hope will be of help to the newbies as i recently heard they are called...
I
Refer to her
As my former self
The princess
Of the quiet suburb
Daddy's favorite girl
One who can do no wrong
A living doll
Played by all
At the age of twenty
She accepted
The overdue invitation
Of undiscovered spaces
Promises of adventure
She took her first steps
By cleansing impurities
Bound by ribbons and lace
She cut her Rapunzel like hair
To cast off added weight
Went off to far, far away
Roaming in infinite alternative possibilities
She had the chronicles of my youth
The record of long ago memoirs
But I forsaking the old
Now holding the future
Uninhibited to move in queer gestures
If I so please
this poem is a very good example of how we all join this family...feeling like you are home,having found people like you and being so excited and enchanted by the idea of coming out of a closet of other peoples making...but in reality,if you really think about it,you are not out o the closet,you just walked into a bigger closet with people in it...now you become part of the group thats hiding in a closet...did you know that you are safer 2 people in a closet than 100 people in the same closet?dont get me wrong,am not saying to keep to your closet,just find a closet thats the right fit for you before you walk into the wrong closet and it destroys you.
After loving and losing in lezville,i had to earn the trick of the trade...
This one is cute
Do I even give a shit?
I hate to sleep alone
Can I help it if my hormones are raging?
As if I have no control, I feel myself moving across the room
It is slim pickins tonight
A toss up of sorts between a blond and a brunette
I make eye contact with the dark one
She's got two drinks in her hands
What a relief, I don't have to make the first move
Cosmopolitan, I like those
She looks away and proceeds to walk
Right
Past
Me
To the blond at the end of the bar
They clink their glasses together and then kiss
That's alright
its early and the bars are so many...
this is ideally what i have noticed goes on in peoples minds in this family...SEX is the staple diet,the reason for some living and if you come in thinking you cant wait to fit in,you will learn with time that you were just THE FLAVOR OF THE WEEK...it might sound like just what you want but trust me,when you get there you wonder what you ever saw good in the situation...
but lets rewind abit and go back to how we meet....
Why will all the answers be coming from me?
You may not like what you see!
When I walk through that fateful door
Your jaw may drop to the floor!
But is that because you like me?
Or is it because you think I'm ugly?
To tell you the truth I don't care,
The kind of person you are is quite rare.
Charming, kind, intelligent and fun.
Who knows; you really could be the one!
This meeting of minds has set my head in a spin,
But I can still hear my heart above the din.
So it's not a question of if but when?
And the hope that we will meet again and again
you start off on the net and in no time you are sailing on this ship that has no anchor,no captain and trust me,no ship can make it to dock without an anchor and captain....
we have a tendency to shit where we eat...we think that just because we only know each other we can only eat amongst ourselves...but i put it to you,when you found this closet and walked into it,were you not a newbie?and how many others have you met since then?and how many newbies do you know today???do you really need to eat your friends shit?and are you really comfortable with your friend eating your shit??and why do you eat the shit???...besides the obvious reasons of wanting to have something to brag about...wanting to taste the forbidden fruit and having a gospel to spread???
have you ever sat and asked yourself how come evrytime you are introduced to someone they suddenly want to "get to know you" and in about 2weeks of meeting the family,you have endless proposals????trust me,yes you are beautiful and an amazing person but i can confidently say atleast three quarters of them will not have a clue that you are a nice girl and they really dont care,they just want you....
i have seen the cycle so many times...you leave the one you are with to end up with their friend then leave that one to be with their friend or vice-versa and then we sit and convince ourselves that we will not kill each other with all these diseases that are around,just because we are not a most at risk population does not mean we shouldnt be careful...at the rate at which we are moving,we will find ourselves right at the top of the list!!!
anyway,i was not teaching nor preaching,just wondering why we keep shitting where we eat!!!
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