working late again and wondering why i agree to do this,i realize that i really love my job...that it keeps me away from my social life might bother me but i think i need to take a break!
after being a part of this comunity or is it family for this long,i have realized one thing,all of us hate how the system works but we still let the system work the same way.we complain and do nothing but complain...reminds me of the saying,if you are not part of the solution you are part of the problem!!!!
Aside from all that,i have had alot happen in the last 4wks which might explain my great absence from this blog,but today i will try and catch you up with all that has happened to keep me so pre-occupied.
I asked my best friend beauty to hook me u with a boyfriend....yes,a boyfriend!and i must admit i didntt expect to go through with it.as you all know(and if you didnt,now am telling you)i have been in love with a woman for the last 17months....so in love that i have done alot of stupid,crazy and psychotic things!the boyfriend i must admit was a desperate measure... desperate times call for desperate measures...to keep me from crossing over into the new year alone and depressed and pining for the woman who owns my heart.so when it happened,i was pretty shocked that i didnt chicken out...
Anyway,about the boy...he is really good looking...and i can see the looks that could kill chics give me when am with him(hahaha...am a lesbian and i can get him...what are straight chics doing wrong???)i brought him home and introduced him to my family to test their reaction(which was amazingly good)and thats when i decided to really go ahead with it.i must admit though that it want the only reason why i chose to do it...here is the thing about him...he is such a girl...i honestly believe that given a chance the boy would be gay...that might explain why he is so homophobic!anyway,i tend to talk to my cousin and sister about things that perplex me and as i was trying to explain why i think he really should just be gay,we got to calling him faith!!!
Beauty,i hope you will read this and laugh because you know what i mean....as i was saying,that was 3wks ago and it has been an amazing 3wks of trying to be straight....I WISH!!!
this is really harder than people make it out to be...when am with him and he wants to make out i have to literally pinch myself to keep from telling him to fuck off...the first time wasnt so hard because honestly,i had really been questioning my wisdom in choosing to be lesbian and not bisexual...but now am sure of who and what i am.so anyway....yes,it was a boyfriend who kept me away now am trying to make amends with myself for trying to be straight...thats the new years alert right there!!!!
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