Do you remember how when you came back that first day we were happy for hours then as night crept in the demons slowly crept out?I remember asking beauty to come say hi and i gave you a chance to catch up by leaving you alone for some time.Do you remember how when she left yo changed?i thought something was up but i could not for the life of me figure out what...Then you wanted to go out with the blasted gorgeous and her doctor love and i told you to go without me?i needed time alone to try and figure out what was going on...you left and the whole time we were texting each other and you came back...Today recalling this day i remember we fought though i cant remember for what...do you?I left you and went to a bar to get shitfaced just so that i wouldn't feel like i was going crazy and barely 20 minutes later i was back with only 3 tequila shots in me and tried acting drunk but i couldn't and before that night was over,we were back in each others arms crying tears of joy and declaring our love for each other...remind me if am wrong.is this not what happened?
If i had known the next day would be worse,i would not have spent that night in your arms.You had really missed gorgeous and dr love so we went to their place to catch up and Jo was there and lets mention everyone lest we have to have witnesses retell this story.How did we end up playing that nasty game that led to so many tears?truth or dare right?when we found out that things were better off left unsaid...i cant even remember most of the things that were said that night all i remember is the feelings they evoked in me and i could see everyone else was almost as mad as i was.Do you remember that night?screaming at each other on the road?Do you remember getting to the hotel and how we went to bed and did not talk about anything?
I don't know if you know this part but i couldn't sleep that night so i got off the bed and tried sleeping on the floor i thought sharing a bed with you was clouding my judgement but being just that far from you was something i wasn't very good at handling so after tossing and turning on the floor i got on the bed right next to you and i cried silently for all i was worth.
The next morning i got up took a shower and dressed and packed and you just lying there in bed saying nothing pushing me out of your life and not even having the courtesy to fight for us gave me the strength to fight for us.We fought and i think that's exactly what i needed to establish that i was not scared of loving and having my heart broken multiple times because doing what i did to you,wrong as it was,i felt that you should feel just an inkling of the pain i felt.And in the aftermath of our tears when i kissed you and told you i was going nowhere not even if you told me to i knew then and there that this was the love i had spent all my life looking for and i could not see anyone else for me.How we got around to leaving that bed walking out to go have lunch then coming back to bed to spend the whole afternoon making love was the miracle of that day...and when i felt my heart would burst with relief that i hadn't lost you,you asked me if i would marry you...and i said yes...
Am sure everyone thinks that's how i said yes but i have a surprise...
The next day we checked out to move into Jo's house for a while and in the course of those events we ended up with gorgeous and dr love right for the IDAHO celebrations.And we were standing next to each other when you gave your drink to J(you will get to meet her with time) and disappeared.Then you came back and asked me if i meant it when i said i wanted to spend the rest of my life with you and i said yes...and you said then lets get married NOW...and i for the world of me said YES!
p.s
This is how i thought the story would go if we ever got around to telling this story together...too bad you cant fill in the missing pieces...
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