long distance relationship... '

Let me try and remember where i left off...so she left for greener pastures.
To be honest,it was really hard even from the beginning and i was having a hard time getting on with my day to day activities.Usually,we would start texting first thing in the morning and calling to keep checking on each other and say i love you...but when she left,i had to be content with sending emails and i would send like 10 a day.I would wake up first thing in the morning and start crying for her.Have you ever seen a dog that's pining for its owner?I was worse.My family thought i was loosing it and my friends,well they were another story all together.
I would use my phone to check my emails every 15minutes on my phone waiting for a reply and my undivided attention was on how i was going to make this work.We had talked about it and i knew it would be hard,but nothing could have prepared me for how hard it was.
Things were going okay,until about 2 weeks into her major move when i noticed she was being distant and i tried to ignore it.But when that didn't work,i tried talking to her about it.this is when i first learnt that i was going to have a very hard time.It turned out someone from Kenya had been to see her and let me tell you,i could feel it in my bones that she was cheating on me and true to God she was.i was so mad that i told nobody what was bothering me.I couldn't write it down,i couldn't talk about it and i just didn't want to deal with it.But can you imagine she actually denied it?
Anyway,i let it go and decided to not try and wrap my head around it.I should have known then that i was stark raving mad but love can make you do many stupid things.If i thought that was the last time she would do it i was gravely mistaken.It didn't take long to find out about the next boyfriend (these are the 2 i knew of...sometimes i know they were more than that but as long as i dont think about it,am making progress)and even that i let go of and thats when i decided that 2 could play that game.To be honest,i didn't exactly cheat.I went to a friends place with my best friend and we got drunk and the friend and i made out but we didn't have sex...
Then suddenly she decided she was in love with someone else...That particular girl i know and i honestly don't like her.I will always think of her as a slut no matter how much i try not to.I have met this girl and i have been extremely nice and decent to her but my heart just hates her in a way that i cant help myself.Anyway,i don't understand why i have to.
Again,even that i got over but not until i had done something.If you read this Gigi,i think you must be as crazy as they come.The only reason i agreed to do what you asked me to do with the love of your life is because i needed to equalize what you did to me with Hot...so now you know,and i wanted D to know that (bear with my language) Kuma si sabuni,haitaisha.And if you felt you could give what was mine to the world,i could do just the same.Only difference is i felt guilty and i realized that lowering myself to both your levels was not a good idea...
Back to the story,that woman was the end of that and i don't even know how i got to working things out with D....like i said,Love can make you do anything....Thus the long distance relationship ended and she came back to my arms....

p.s
I know this is one of the worst posts i have had so far but it is with great distaste that i write this piece....i think i would have been better off forgetting....but some things are too hard to forget.