my journey of love...before i screwed up

Writing this is as good as reliving it...I don't think i ever loved a woman the way i loved D...Most of the relationships in lezville are sexual but D and I waited a couple of weeks before we got physical.
What i felt for her was so intense that i didn't want want to have sex with her till i knew she was mine so i asked her to be my girlfriend...i can't erase the feelings of that day...i was restless the previous night,slept so fitfully i woke up even more sure that i had to ask her.I was so scared she would say no or tell me to fuck off or say something as painful as i don't want to have anything to do with you...but i knew i had to ask...Just in case you don't know,am chicken when it comes to matters of the heart.But i asked all the same and when she said yes i knew nothing could ever make me regret the decision i had made.
I remember that night was our first night together...I had to work as usual and when i got to her house,she was asleep and i was so nervous i almost convinced myself to sleep at her doorstep...but this awesome woman got up and dragged me to the room(not really dragging) and undressed me and we made love for the first time...it was sooo intense and deep and emotional i had never made love to a woman before (i had, had amazing sex with women....just not that amazing)...that was the night i told her i loved her for the first time and when she fell asleep in my arms that night,i thought my heart was going to burst with all the love i was feeling...I was so ecstatic i couldn't let go of her...i didn't want her to leave my arms ever...to be honest,that feeling has been part of me for as long as i have loved her...even when things got out of hand and were really bad,i remember one night i pretended to be asleep till she fell asleep and we had had one of our really bad fights and i sat up in bed crying and begging her sleeping form not to leave me ever and promising to love her for the rest of my life,i lay down next to her and cried myself to sleep...
We spent every spare minute we could on phone with each other and saw each other almost everyday...and truth be told,the day when i didn't see her i would be in a crappy mood...her voice and her presence were all i wanted...almost every weekend was spent with her and those were the best days of my life.....