Women...

Cant live with them...cant live without them...
For as long as i can remember i have been a lover and great admirer of women.All kinds,shapes and sizes (i wish)...at the age of 21,when i say am proud to be ME,i mean every word of it because in being Ivy i have done and seen enough to make me believe i know me enough to be proud of me.In being a lesbian,i have lots of people who say that its just a phase am going through or its just an age thing...But i dont think so!Nobody can know you better than you know yourself.So with all the conviction in the world,i stand proud and declare that i am a Lesbian...(i think i gave this speech in a dream)
That dream couldnt have come at a better time i think.I have been having a very interesting week at work,having to live in hotels(i love it),travelling and working with strangers and ofcourse my Phamilia from the office (totally missing the other 2 members of this team)...and i met this 26yr old 'boy' who wants us to get to know each other intimately and eventually physically(maybe 3months ago,now am too sure of myself)I could call him a guy but he makes feel like a 14yr old girl.This boy is very interesting and smokes as much kush as i do(might explain why i tolerate him).He rolls up or i roll up and we light up.Only problem is,he keeps saying things that make me super uncomfortable(and feel like am 14).He says things like i love your smile,i think your hot...by now you get the drift,which makes me blush and feel silly(if you didnt already know,am very shy in person).He gets all touchy feely with me and that makes me want to hit over the head but am being nice,after all,we have to work together.So recently i decided to tell him about this chic i sort of like and am thnking of laying and he did exactly what i expected him to do.He went ahead to point out that she is his boss(loyalty???) keep in mind am not looking for a job,i already have one.But the most puzzling thing is the girl herself.I have a thing for older women (i cant see myself with an 18yr old)and she is abit older than me.We went out drinking the other night and i wanted to get an idea on her thoughts and ideals but she wouldnt take my bait.Then just as we were heading back to the hotel she says she has always wanted to kiss a girl...what does that suggest?should i broach the subject and push it?She puts on a show of lack of interest but i can tell she is just faking it.
That one aside,there is this girl that i met a while ago,the girl is fineness in the flesh and she is smart.This is the kind of girl i could fall in love with(which is scary because i have seen what love can do).She has amazing taste in music and has so much going for her besides her beauty.Problem is she is complicated but then, is there a lesbian that isnt?She dated a friend of mine for a while and am just wondering if that would be a potential problem???
Then finally there is the straight girl that of late i have been ignoring.I realized she could turn into an addiction if i dont watch myself.She is amazing,with a booty and a half and she has the voice of an angel.But she is straight and actually thinks like a straight girl(wish she could think like a dyke,might make it easier to figure her out),its one of those delicate situations.i like her lots and i think she could make an good friend.But am wondering,can the friendship come after sex???
All these thoughts,revolving around women,induced by women and ironically,thought of by a woman!!!