From my collections

To want someone with all that you have

Is one of those rare things in life

Finding a woman who makes you want

To be better than you are today, tomorrow

A rare gift in life, one of those things we all desire.

I found her, when I least expected to

Lying nude on her bed after sex

My body drained from the intense workout

My mind wandering around the room

But my eyes always finding her.

Mesmerized by her beauty

The intensity of her smile,

The depth in her eyes.

I saw and felt myself fall

Falling not being truly appropriate for

I stumbled left and right

Surrounded by so much light

My heart opening up to receive her

My mind absorbing everything about her.

Her tattoos speaking of her depth,

Her hands that minutes before had been touching me,

Those beautiful long fingers deep inside me

The arch of her back when she was on top of me

How could I help the slow but steady falling?

Her voice drove me to my knees

And all I wanted was to lay there in her bed forever

And do her each and every bidding

I felt and saw it, but didn’t believe or accept it

I fought it in the beginning when I first realized

What this swooning feeling was

Tried to dispel the belief that she was IT

But the harder I tried, the harder I fell

Soon I was swimming in a sea of emotions

Her every word I hang on to

Her every desire I wanted to fulfill

She was in everything I did or hoped to do

She was in every though that crossed my mind

My mind went into overdrive

Trying to device ways to make her mine

Wanting to be her punching bag when need be

Her whore when the urge arose

Her queen in every right

Never once letting myself be convinced it was in vain.

Was I really so good at playing dumb?

Or was she just blind to the facts at hand?

I asked myself o’er and o’er again

Yet still the emotions persisted

And the sea I swam threatened to pull me under

I tried my way, but I was not making any progress

I went out of my way to have her by her terms

For just to see her smile made my day

To hear her voice made my heart race

To be around her filled my senses

And being with her? Don’t get me started

But the stolen kisses, stolen moments

Stolen juices running down my thighs

Didn’t fill the void, only made it bigger

The emptiness echoed inside me

The pain of having yet not having reverberated in me

I had choices,

I have choices,

But how does an indecisive Libra make up their mind?