BELLA AM SORRY...

Baby am sorry,yesterday i felt really guilty when you got mad at me because of the crap i have been pulling where my health was concerned.Am sorry,I know i should take better care of myself and start doing the right thing...brief explanation....I have been complaining about my tummy for quite some time (2 months) and i didn't got to a doctor till last week.I told the doctor most of the symptoms and he took a couple of tests but nothing came up in the results so we thought i should take antibiotics and i have been getting a jab everyday for some meds but i haven't felt better (but the symptoms have evolved) and i happened to tell Bella that i wasn't any better (bad idea considering she has also been sick for a while while but is getting better...thank heavens,she had me worried)and she asked me for like the thousandth time why i dont take better care of myself.I have been having my teeth aching for the longest time (almost 3 yrs) all my friend have heard me complain at one point or another..I have had a gynae's appointment for the longest time but i still haven't gone in yet.The only reasons i have for not going are...lets see,....Am scared of meds,injections and i hate doctors ...and as though that's not enough,i hate that they dont tell you the whole story in lay mans language.If you use big words,i cant for the life of me say what i have or even comprehend it...And whats going on of late?Everyone i have heard of late goes to hosi and they have lofe threatening disease.I dont want that to happen to me!!!...And finally,to be honest,the stoner in me is too lazy to go and see a doctor.I would rather have a blunt than got to a doctor.But after last night,i had a fitful sleep after we talked because of how upset you got and how stupid my arguments sounded in my own head  so i called my gynae today and made an appointment for next week tuesday.Am looking for a dentist other than mine for a second opinion.And am going to see another doctor about my tummy if am not better by Monday.Lets atleast wait for the meds to work...Another thing babe,i care about you alot and yesterday when you got upset i wanted to just hold you and apologize to you and kiss your toes till u forgave me..Am sorry for upsetting you..Please forgive me baby?!?